Necessary

"What do you want?" He asks me
And I wonder if I should answer honestly
What I want doesn't matter
Because I never quite attain it
And perhaps I shouldn't
Because it'd never turn out good that way
But it hasn't really otherwise

"What do you need?" He asks me
And I wonder if I'll ever know that for sure
What I need is impossible to define
Because nothing seems to cure me, make me whole
And maybe it's not supposed to
Because I have to be broken
But I am rather sick of that

Honesty and certainty
Become forces that are hurting me
Because that's not life
That's not anything familiar to me
I've lived a little while
And the one thing I'm scared of
Is that it'll never get any better
That I have to keep surviving
When I'm so tired already

I want him
And I need you